When What You Thought To Be True Changes

My heart is breaking.

There is nothing I can do about it.

I don't understand.

Why?

Why them?

They haven't done anything wrong.

Why punish the innocent?

Why deny them the blessings they deserve because of someone else?

I don't understand.

How can something I have grown up being taught to be true all of a sudden come with a condition?

I don't know what to do.

My heart aches.

I can't stop it.

I can't prevent it.

I don't know if it will heal.

As long as I am a mother, my heart will ache.

How can this be?

How can You say those things?

How can You deny them?

How can You keep them away?

They are Your children!

I don't understand.

I wish there was something I could do.

I wish I could see this through Your eyes.

I wish I could see what You see.

Now and in the future.

I pray that I may one day understand.

I pray that one day I may push past the hurt.

I pray that one day I may fully accept this.

Until that day, I pray for Your strength and understanding.

Please stay by my side and guide me.

Please help me to do what it is I need to do.

Please help me to see the way You see.